Been feeling pretty good lately, and in some ways, things are better than they’ve been in a long time. The hubby and I have talked more in the past month or two than in the past few years. We were both untrusting of each other and snooping. His suspicions of me started not because I’ve been doing anything wrong. I think they started because I’ve been private about some things I’ve been doing. I joined an online support group to help deal with some issues in my marriage. It’s nothing bad. I’m not doing cyber sex or plotting to meet someone for an affair. I just needed people who understand. He would still blow a gasket if he knew. He doesn’t know about this blog either.
Some things are still the same ole same ole though, so today had me pretty down. Both of our children were away this past week. Now, I think many parents would have taken that opportunity to enjoy themselves. You know what I mean…enjoy themselves all over the house: the kitchen, the living room, hanging from the ceiling (LOL). Just doing things you can’t do when the kids are home.
I’ve even begun to question my faith. I have prayed and prayed over this. The Bible even says not to neglect your spouse in that area. So why isn’t God doing something about this? I haven’t even been praying or reading my daily scripture e mail lately.